Life . Captured

refreshment

2011-12-22T14:34:00.000+08:00

been quite a time since my last update here. I'd say, hectic and busy shall be the best excuses. Staying back late at school and study. That's what December serves us in Czech, well at least, to me.

My parents are coming for a short vacation with cousins,and off to Germany!

Till then, bye! ;)

Gratitude

2011-12-03T06:18:00.001+08:00

I left the examination room with a very blurry face, unexpressed. It was like, is this for real? Yes, alhamdulillah finally Allah has gave me another chance to continue my 2nd year studies here. Still remember the day I came back from my summer holiday carrying such burdens of unfinished examinations, someone told me, "kalau 2 subjek ok lagi, tapi kalau 3 tu berat la sikit." Went through all this semester with only the hope of my parents. I don't want them to be sad of me, worried. But alhamdulillah, gratitude to HIM of which I couldn't describe, for giving me strength and eased me all the way. Tiba2 terdetik rasa malu dengan Allah for granting me those blessings, of which tak padan dengan efforts aku sendiri. ini serious. But whatever it is, should be very grateful now.

Thanks to ALL my friends, seniors and everbody for giving me such valuable supports. Seriously tak pernah rasa support sebegini hebat, giving me strength and confidence. Thank you thank you!!

Well it didn't stop here, let's continue another year, with whole new spirit! ;) at least, my parents are extremely happy right now, i suppose.

my inspirations

2011-11-26T23:37:00.002+08:00

iGames Praha 2011

2011-11-24T05:57:00.000+08:00

Now in malay pulak. Dah seminggu lebih berlalu baru nak tulis kan. Tak kisah la syok sendiri ke apa sebab I'm writing this not for publicity, whoever stumble upon this blog, so baca je la. Macam biasa a little bit introduction about iGames = Inter-varsity games for Malaysians in Czech Republic. Setiap tahun ada and this year, merupakan tahun ke-dua aku join, of which hosted in Prague.Seriously, iGames ni memang aku sangat2 anticipate since last year lagi, and perhaps for the years onwards. Ditambah2 lagi keseronokan bila dah pass exam, immediately that evening pegi Prague. Haha. I'd say, this will be the biggest exciting event every year because why? sebab it brings ALL people of each locality together, cheering and support each other. Haa dalam kata lain, menguatkan ukhwah masing2 gitu. Tapi memang masa lawan tu rival habis la dengan other team, biasala dah nama pun lawan kan. Gaduh gaduh pun biasa jugak. Sebenarnya, bila masing2 dah balik rumah, keluar sport hall, everything got normal. Takda lagi dah nak marah2 sana sini.
Kalau last year, family Olomouc ni naik bas double-decker pegi HK, now kita pegi still dengan bas jugak, but separately lah sebab pertambahan ahli keluarga. Hehe. Tahun aku tekad nak jadi active, main banyak games. Memang banyak la, Bowling, Basketball, Volleyball and Bola beracun. Mesti bosan kan tengok muka aku. Haha tak kisah la labu. Janji wa seronok. Placed 2nd in both Bowling and Bola beracun. Ok la tu. Tapi yang paling sedih koyak gila gila is kalah basketball. like kalah teruk gila okay. I was too disappointed sebab last year we got 2nd and of course la this year target Gold. Takpa lah maybe tak cukup practice. Sorry la anak2 buah ku. I was too busy studying for exams that we went for practice twice a week. Memang la tak cukup kan.
Ok enough jabbering *malas nak fikir* Let pictures do the talking.

Ini lepas koyak kalah basketball. S'okay s'okay

See, saya main volleyball juga

Siapa nak lawan cheer macam kitorang ha? The best cheerleaders will only cheer from the best place !

santai2

Wa cakap lu,aa Olomouc menang lagi! Brapa kali? 3 kaliiii for real!

itu pentingnya semangat kerjasama ok.

Alhamdulillah Olomouc masih lagi berjaya membawa pulang piala pusingan tersebut, walaupun persaingan sangat-sangat sengit. Champion bertahan gitu sebab dah 3 kali berturut-turut menang. Maka layaklah kalau nak sebut, Sekolah Sukan dan Sorak Olomouc. Haha have fun bye alls!

Wonderful November

2011-11-19T08:07:00.000+08:00

I never thought this November would be such an inspiring month for me and yes, rained me with lots of good things. I thank Allah for that, Alhamdulillah. I barely realized it's presence in the very beginning, as it gone day by day, all I wished was that it didn't appear, at all. It was my extended Anatomy exam that cost me all the trouble. No the trouble caused by my self-ignorance. Isn't it a bliss? huh. and I will always 11.11.11, not because of anything personal, but truly the happiness of which I believe ignite all the sunken hope, of me and my parents or maybe all my friends who care. Memorable enough, I finally kick my ass off Anatomy after thousands years of tears. I still remember the night before my exam, I was totally freak out, like seriously freaked out. Told my friend "Aku rasa macam tak lama je aku kat Olomouc ni" . Oh and I cried to everybody too. Well negative enough which pulled my confidence to nil. And when the day came, I still cry to my mum as she morning called me. I kept praying, and I believe my parents did too, too much than I could ever imagine. Up until the very last moment I held the book, I didn't give up. But 1 thing I learnt from this situation, despite of how much you put in your effort, how much you pray to Allah, you wouldn't simply get what you really want. I was given such a hard time on that. He didn't give me the easy way to pass. I didn't get easy questions, pretty tough I guess, for me. I almost failed myself once again. And that's when suddenly the light showed up, Allah hold the heart of my examiners. I was given an extra question, unexpectedly asked 2 days before by my senior. MashaAllah He has actually showed me the way before anything, and it's just a matter of belief. Couldn't be more grateful than that.

I was indeed so happy to see my friends were anxiously waiting in the lobby, and yes tears dropped in front of everybody. Those huge supports, I will never ever forget. Never. But the one who blown my heart away were my mum and dad. I called them, in Mecca, telling the beautiful story, and they cried. That was the most amazing moment in my life when your dad said "Kakak, I'm so happy, tears dropped." same goes to my mum. I can't believe how much of that meant to them. Thank you for your dua's.

I know this writing means nothing, it's just a piece of my heart. *I'm crying while writing this* Thousands of thanks to everybody, be it my friends, sister, anybody! Remember friends there's no such way as giving up, I learnt the hardest way, but not hard enough. Faith hold the key to solutions and yes ultimately, keep praying, dua's to His Almighty. This might sounds typical, and easy to word out, but truly deep down I really really pray for our success, together, here. InsyaAllah. ;)

Fix You

2011-11-07T06:55:00.001+08:00

I'm in love with this. All Coldplay's sounds good to me. and the lyrics, make me think somehow. ;)

Viva Olomouc

2011-10-31T01:47:00.000+08:00

Yesterday had been way too good for me and for sure to other Olomoucian too. Now I understand why the need of families are so important, in everything. Once I reached Satalice yesterday I've seen no one than just the football players. But here we are, a bus with full house capacity touching the ground with unexpected rich spirit. To win, our very first gold for this years iGames. It might look a little bit weird to some people that we brought up the best-est cheerleaders of ours, might look kind of improper. But think of the good side of it. I see it as a different prospective of which somehow I agreed to the notion that sports bring people together. Not together like together, but "ukhuwah". After all, I don't think it was a bad idea because misjudging always happen. Supporting each other, till the very end of it, until we grip the assurance of satisfaction. It wasn't that bad actually. I myself, caught up in a misfortune incident, got hit by a flying ball of which I believe flying at about 150km/h *mind the exaggeration* landed right on my face. That was a triple LOL. I wasn't expecting something like that but in the end it was just nothing. No serious injury so it means nothing to bother much as long as I am happy for the victory. It's just like you sitting on the very edge of field and a stoned bull hit you on your ass. Haha. Oh well I can;t find any relations to it.
I believe even if we didn't win last time, it surely be no problem to us, well at least to me. Because the bright side of has really show up. Winning is just the extra sweetness to ukhuwah. Alhamdulillah. And I hope with the growing population here didn't violate of what we're having now. Cheers all! "LONG LIVE OLOMOUC"
*well there some snaps here and there.*

smells like teen spirit!

Winning champion of 4 consecutive years. Hard to believe, well we do! ;)

I'm going to miss you

2011-10-30T06:53:00.000+08:00

Dear mama and abah. I hope the call to be HIS guests this time is for the best. May Allah provide both of you with ease and HE'll take care of you for me InsyaAllah. I was a little bit off the line thinking I'm not be able to at least say farewell at the airport, but surely I believe everything will be alright. Just want you to know that everytime I think about you, tears shedding from my eyes. Semoga mendapat haji mabrur. InsyaAllah. :'(

Road to iGames '11

2011-10-23T16:40:00.000+08:00

igames datang lagi and this time I'm going to make full use of it. It seems like I'm putting my fingers in everything I could play. Haha tamak gila kan. But I really want to play. Okay the sure thing is that I'm in charge for basketball games and hopefully I'm able to find the best player for Olomouc! Excited much? Sure do. Last year we only managed runner-up but I promise now it won't be the same. We're gonna go up further, to WIN! yeayyy!

ouch!

2011-10-21T02:08:00.001+08:00

Finally all the puzzling thoughts end. I just checked on the uni portal site to find out that in the next two weeks I'm going to have 2 biggest exams, to complete my overextended first year. Now I really feels like screaming the hell out like seriously!

Biology on 4th November

Anatomy on 11th November

That's one tough decision I mean because for Bilogy I didn't even touch anything, solely relying on my previous knowledge. Rusted I think, by the whole "summer thing". But I don't want to hold those two any longer, as if I'm going to finish'em as soon as I can. I'm too scared for what's coming in this second year. Too much to do. Allah give me strength to go through this smoothly. I long for everybody's doa's.

Olomouc Video Mapping

2011-10-18T02:57:00.000+08:00

Cantik tak? haha memang kurang la kan sebab I still don't figure out the night shot technique. Tak tau tak tauu!

I L.O.V.E Y.O.U

2011-10-16T04:26:00.000+08:00

"It's never enough to say I Love You" well quoted from Theory of A Deadman song, Not Meant To Be .
There's no such thing of me being in love, it's just that today, I learned a new version of I Love You, the good way of course.

I : Islam

L : Light

O : Obey

V : Victory

E : Enlightened

YOU. ;) The words are like the sequence of how our life should be.First you have Islam in you, then you'll see the light that show you the way of living it. Obey all His orders, faith and sincere. And you'll gain victory of your good deeds, then nothing else in the world can enlighten you more than what you're having now. Life is all about following the sequence then only you achieve what you've been dreaming of. Happiness.

See, she's happy in the end. Like us too. so no matter how hard life hit on you be in your heart the fullest faith. InsyaAllah. ;)

WInter is coming..

2011-10-14T06:17:00.001+08:00

Hey hey, winter is about to come very very soon and this means...I'm so close to the next vacation trip. Not sure whether my parents will be here or not but they're planning to come in December. Hopefully they will because I already miss them. Well currently in my mind, I'm up with something far and better sight. Here's what's on my mind. ;)

1. Belgium

Brussels

2. Italy

Colloseum

JULIET's house! ooohh ini serious nak pergi!

3. The Netherlands

Amsterdam

Okay, I think that's all enough to show how much I want to travel right now. But but..need to finish Anatomy first. InsyaAllah. ;)

Be strong..my friends.

2011-10-08T07:01:00.000+08:00

Life may seems unfair for us, but it's not about life. It's what Allah has already planned for ahead of our knowledge. Deep in my heart I'm really really sorry for whatever that happened recently. I may not express them by words, share the sadness with gesture but in my heart, my prayers are always be with you. Because I know, I went through the same exact thing, have the same feelings. I cried too much of it before until somewhat now I feel there's nothing left for me to cry. It may be easy for us to speak, to say nice things, to ease but the one who hold to know best. Just remember that Allah will never test us with something we didn't manage to handle, for that you're strong enough to go through it , have faith. Rezeki ada di mana-mana. Don't ever ever give up because that change nothing. The friendship we built here, will remain forever. Kita tak boleh ubah apa yang dah tertulis tapi usaha tu penting. Come rain or shine, the smallest part of us , He'll knew it all. InsyaAllah He'll reward you someday with something unexpected, something bigger probably. Nobody knows. Patience is virtue. Wish all the best. ;)

suicide!

2011-10-04T05:38:00.000+08:00

The title didn't go nice. Well it is not a good act to do. Suicide isn't a way to get rid of problems. In fact, you just give yourself a self-reward free death, useless. Okay, back to real sequence. Yesterday went to Brno with my batchmates, just to hang out that we never actually have the real together gether hang out. So semalam pergi la jalan2, shopping at Galerie Vankovka and the proceed to Ikea. Enough to say that I spent on just what I need. But the tragedy happened on our way back. Suddenly the train stopped at a station, it's Vyskov kalau tak silap. Lama jugak of which we supposed to reach Olomouc by 6.40 pm. After a very long delay at Vyskov tiba2 ramai orang keluar train, kita mesti la tak faham because they announced in czech about the changes. Then someone told us that there's an accident, suicide di mana ada orang suddenly terjun from the moving train dekat2 dengan our train. So semua train kena stop, mungkin sebab dah jadi crime area kot. Lama jugak stranded dekat Vyskov sampai malam jugak lah. And that place, bayangkan la like everybody in the train semua stranded, ramai gila. And the train company provided us with buses to send us to the next train station where we can continue our journey to Olomouc. Dalam kepayahan tu, language barrier la katakan, kita memang tak faham anything pun, but luckily and alhamdulillah met Razi's friend who can speak english well, and he guided us along the way. Tu lah kadang2 Allah bagi kita susah, tapi dalam setiap kesusahan tu confirm ada kemudahan. Serious have you ever imagine, dalam2 ramai2 orang tu boleh jumpa that guy who helped us. Finally, sampai jugak dekat next train station and sambung pergi Olomouc. Very tiring sebab banyak gila barang2 shopping + berat jugak.
COnclusion nya, jangan bunuh diri - rugi diri sendiri, menyusahkan orang lain. Okay that's all. ;)

Hate weekends

2011-10-02T06:20:00.000+08:00

Kenapa malas sangat ni. All I did these 3 days were just wasting my time, like waste waste. I can't keep my pace on as if I forgot what Abah told me before "Work harder this time, belajar lebih sikit dari dulu." Sedihnya tak boleh study. I shouldn't be home most of the time, I should spend the time somewhere else where I can really have maximum focus. And it's already October, anytime soon will be another big things. Give me strength Allah. That's all I need for now.

Bright bright

2011-09-30T05:19:00.000+08:00

Winter is coming and I'm stocking my micro-sized closet with new stuff too. I just love the idea of having bright colours on me, not because I've been wanting attention, no no that's not it. The thing is when I got myself into less bright, I'm losing my confidence. So it's like my energy booster and confidence level. LOL that. Anyway, I'm still in the midst of preparing what should I have for winter, well I'm currently looking for high knee boot, and frilled coat. But maybe frill doesn't fit me good, so anything would be ok as long as it is bright. ;)

Oh and this mustard color really bugs me. like realy2 bug me!

my dream coat. ahh ahh I want something like this

Memories

2011-09-28T04:29:00.000+08:00

Entah tiba2 rasa nak buat post ni, maybe sebab I miss the old high school life. Well biasa lah tu, orang cakap "we'll see things differently, and appreciate the past than present." eh ke aku je yang cakap macam tu? More or less lebih kurang macam tu lah. Mula2 masuk form 1 tu, aku ni super duper noob gila, it's like entering a whole new world sebab sebelum ni mana pernah aku duduk asrama, buat kerja sendiri lagi lah. Masa form 1 tu lah actually banyak benda kelakar yang berlaku, ingat lagi time ambik signature senior2 form 5, aku siap kena jerit dari asrama girl dengar sampai asrama boy. sounds crazy kan, tapi that's the memories. at least ada jugak pengalaman tu. Dorm aku pulak memang dorm hujung sekali, so memang jadi laluan utama nk ke toilet, biasa lah kasut2 selipar semua mesti sepah kat luar pastu senior asyik bising2. Then kitaorang pun geram la,duduk depan pintu dorm, jerit perli that senior, "hey aku sepak jugak kasut budak2 ni sampai maktab" kadang2 kitaorang tabur bedak depan pintu. Haha jahat gila. Waktu tu aku tak baik sangat dengan Shief, siap gaduh2 lagi kot. Bilik sebelah2 je pun. Pernah jugak aku baca dia punya diari kot, tak pun luahan perasaan dia, siap tulis dia tak tahan nak balik sarawak taknak sekolah sini dah. Kitaorang masa tu, pergh seronok gila kot. Ok serious jahat nak mati. Sorry shief, itu zaman tak matured lagi. ;P Nak dijadikan cerita, aku dapat jadi prefect masa form 1, shief pun sama. Meaning kitorang ni memang prefect oldies la dalam batch tu, dari form 1 kot. Haha.

Naik form 2, aku pun pindah bilik duduk dengan senior2 prefects yang lain which sama bilik dengan shief kot. Aku macam "duhh macam mana nak duduk sebilik dengan budak ni" like seriously gaduh teruk kot dulu. Awal2 memang aku tak kamcing, katil sebelah2 je pun. Pastu sampai bila kan nak gaduh2, lama2 tu best friend jugak jadinya. Malam2 lepas prep, singgah ko-op takpun beli nasi lemak then balik bilik, bersidang atas lantai dengan kakak2 form 4, gosip sakan la. Start waktu tu la aku baik dengan senior2. In the end dah jadi puak2 even dalam bilik sendiri sebab senior yang masa tu form 5 memang sangat2 baik. Kontra la dengan kitorang ni. Dulu kat common room tu ada tv, tapi dah rosak terus kena buang, so lama la kitorang takda tv kt asrama tu. Lagipun bagus jugak, aku tak suka bila diaorang tengok tv bising gila. nyampah.

Dah masuk tahun ke-3, tak banyak sangat yg lawak2 nya. Aku still di dorm yang sama, posisi katil yang sama cuma makin gempak sebab makin ramai ahli gosip. Haha. macam2 lah sampai aku rasa dah terabai pulak kawan2 yang lain. Pagi2 paling meluat dalam hidup, sebab mandi kena beratur, like panjang gilaa. Pastu toilet tu pun bukan bersih memang aku paling anti toilet asrama la. Dahla kena share dengan budak2 form 1 n 2. Tapi tak kisah la sebab last2 aku bangun lambat pun, so budak2 ni dah habis mandi. Prefect jahat jugak, tak pergi perhimpunan, lepak tunggu budak lewat dalam asrama (alasan) . Dalam kelas, aku duduk tepi fatin nabila, so sampai dah lama2 orang cakap kitaorang twin sebab tinggi lebih kurang sama. Haha seriously everywhere orang akan tanya same question. Baru perasan yang sebenarnya life kat asrama tu hectic gila. Dahla habis kelas lambat pukul 4 cmtu. Then malam pukul 8 dah kena pergi prep malam pulak. Aku suka tiru nota jihah, sebab dia je la yang paling rajin buat nota. Aku malas, serious sangat malas.

Pastu bila form 4, aku still lagi di bilik yang sama. Haha 3 years in a row bilik sama, katil tukar pulak. This time shief tak satu bilik dah, kelas pun lain. Aku ditempatkan dengan golongan2 prefect yang sangat berhemah. Maka terjadilah zaman kegelapan aku, zaman kerahan tenaga. Aku pulak jadi House captain masa tu. Memang teruk gila la. Semua benda nak kena buat, ambik attendance, check orang fly, check dorm anak buah. Sampai kalau musim exam tu aku memang tido depan pintu terus, sebab nak cahaya lampu koridor. Kadang tu tak tido terus. Nice la sebab exam aku pun macam makin teruk je. Kalau pegi toilet tengah2 malam, nak kejut orang malas, so turun la sorang2. Cuak gila nak mati lah tapi...tak kan nak tunggu kan. Haha alhamdulillah tak pernah lagi ku diganggu ke apa ke.

Form 5 dah jadi kepala. Aku duduk bilik yang lebih mantop. Lagi isolated. Kali ni dapat balik dengan shief. Yes mula beraksi. Bakul dobi tu kononnya limit 4 helai je sorang, bilik kitaorang hentam sebakul besar hantar. Apa kisah kan. Pinggan dining tu tak yah cakap la, memang bersusun dalam bilik, dah jenis tak makan kat dining, bawak balik bilik. Lampu bilik dah tak pernah nak tutup masa light off, nanti prefect bawah akan datang ketuk2 " Tutup lampu ok" kitaorang pun "ha masuk la tolong tutup jap" Kejam. Haha. Rasanya kitaorang lah kot dengan ahli2 bilik prefect paling bengong. Cat lukis2 kat bilik, katil double decker di cabut2 jadi single pastu lungguk tepi bilik warden. Banyak lagi sebenarnya activity yang aku buat masa ni, sebab bilik kan sangat strategik gitu. Panjang pulak cerita. Haha, ok that's all. bubye!

Olomouc berhari raya

2011-09-27T04:46:00.000+08:00

Bila hari raya je mesti makan, bila makan je selalunya time raya la kan. Actually when we got this kind of event it's a very good place and time for us to meet up each other, and yes having fun! Ye lah kalau takda event2 besar macam ni tak semua dapat jumpa, selalu aku pun nampak orang yang dekat faculty je. Sometimes tu kita in rush, tak sempat nk berbual or anything. Tapi my class schedule for this winter semester is kind of weird, I hardly see anybody during break so I just end up wasting my time in the computer lab. Haha kadang2 tu tido je terus kat situ, you won't believe it. It was actually the annual hari raya event hold by Malaysia Embassy usually in Prague, but this time they held it in Olomouc. Ok la tu at least tak la ramai sangat kan, tak gitu? haha joking. Yang sebenarnya, the fun of the event bukan start hari event tu pun, tapi before tu lagi, everybody sibuk2 masak sama2. As for me, aku boleh dikatakan pergi menyibuk je pun, tengok2 and last2 end up tengok movie beramai2. Seronok like seriously seronok. Oh and memandangkan I just got myself a new camera, so biasalah me and my so called "models" (they called themselves that) memang sakan lah bergambar. Last2 muka diaorang je yang penuh. Haha takpa lah janji korang posing cantik. Aku snap saja okay. Sekarang ni aku sangat suka snap gambar orang, gambar sendiri kurang pun dah tak kisah sangat. ;P So okay la, let pictures do the rest of the talking.

This is my batchmate! Gen.Med 2010/2016

With our TYT Malaysian Ambassador in Czech

F.R.I.E.N.D.S (padahal..tuttt) ;P

Loving this

2011-09-24T04:29:00.000+08:00

These are the presents for my last birthday. Officially 20 now. ;(
Do I fit the age that I am supposed to be? Well I bet this year it's going to be green. See, got two flower pots, a bee, a cat and a troll. Haha thanks friends!

Ipad 2

2011-09-24T00:10:00.000+08:00

I want this so bad. Bukan untuk seronok2 or to brag of, but I think it's a need for me. Senang nak study guna Ipad, maksudnya macam baca lecture note ke, download medical apps ke, and so on. Seriously it makes life goes wayyy easier than just using laptop. Well, kalau tak orang tak cakap la dunia di hujung jari right. Now, it's in the palm. ;)

nak nak nak!

Pecah perut

2011-09-22T02:52:00.000+08:00

Yang sebenarnya, gelak pecah perut. You really have no idea how much I laughed in the computer lab a.k.a Bilik kawalan czemsa this evening, until I realized that I was laughing only towards the computer. Shief did it this time, lucky there's nobody in there. I actually did it many times before. Tak pernah sekali pun tak gelak kalau sembang dengan budak tu haih. You keep so many things with you currently. ;P

Ceyy bajet kawan la nih. Haha.

OMG

2011-09-22T02:15:00.000+08:00

Did I do the right thing or just complicate things? Let's hope for the best. sorry ;)

Gelak tak payah

2011-09-21T06:01:00.000+08:00

No not funny as you might wish for. Tapi kelakar lah you'all. Ok, let's just keep this to myself.

chill dulu. jom2

A Drop In The Ocean

2011-09-19T05:38:00.001+08:00

This song kills. It's in my new playlist as it makes me think about Damon. ;'(

Back to school!

2011-09-19T04:11:00.000+08:00

Okay school's back tomorrow. Jom pergi sekolah!

Second Year

2011-09-15T06:42:00.000+08:00

Another good news for me! Alhamdulillah finally I can make it to the second year class! Luckily the Vice-dean was kind enough to let us all proceed to the second year studies with such a promising hope. And yes, it doesn't mean to just attending classes, but double the hard work to finish all the unfinished things. Hopefully I can manage everything well so that I can really really sit back and live the life. Remember, not to play too much and waste the chances given. Seriously I can never imagine how's life been if I was about to repeat the first year's studies as I'm still not as close to half. Anyway, there's no one who should be thankful to than just HIM who blessed us all. ;)

By HIS will.

2011-09-14T06:10:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah that's all I could say right now. Since the last time life's treating me, of something you could never imagine, now I can finally see some hope, light. Yesterday, I was blessed with the passing of my Biophysics and today, the very good news for my parents, they'll be able to perform Haji next October. I was happy, and felt so blessed with all the good things. Now I know, He give us through hardship, and reward us with things that we can never thought of, the true happiness. Thank you Allah. ;)

Good Friends

2011-09-13T21:58:00.000+08:00

Never once in my mind regret of being here with them. Because I know and I believe they'll be around whenever I need them. Giving supports through the downs. Tonight was definitely one of the greatest. Haha. It was Ama's birthday celebration with super mantopp nasi lemak and surprise ice-cream cake. Wohoo! no diet time. I couldn't resist the sambal that made me, makan sambal sahaja. Ok done with the night. Definitely a family worth a life. ;)

worries

2011-09-10T21:32:00.000+08:00

Abah told me not to worry, and get carried away by what's happening now. But who on earth can handle such situation and even if possible, it wouldn't be too long until then to realize, I'm on the edge already. I can pretend to be like nothing happen but deep in my heart, I'm disappointed with myself. I don't know how to fix things up like I always did before, and it gets even worse.Just like my mum said, "there's no point of regretting, it happened and will never come back. Move on." All I hope now is for Allah to keep giving me strength to go through the obstacles, and I believe, HE will reward. someday.

Hoping there's still light for me.

You know what.

2011-09-10T17:41:00.000+08:00

You know what, kalau aku stress memang aku balik rumah. even if it's million miles away
because home is the BEST place where everything doesn't seem bothering much.

Cries

2011-09-08T22:26:00.000+08:00

I don't know how many times I cried today. I feel so burdened with everything alone, the exams. I'm too scared to face the consequences of tomorrow. too much fear. Because I know my effort still nothing comparable for me to pass. I'm not sure whether I'am in the right way of doing this. I don't want to fail my parents expectation again, their hope coz' I'm sure they'll gonna be extremely sad too. This is my last chance and yes,losing my confidence. How did you guys end it up very well..? ;(

Never realized until today

2011-09-08T13:44:00.000+08:00

A facebook status from a friend of mine, which make me ponder for a while, I never know the exact meaning of what I read in my solat until today. I didn't realize that I read the prayer for His bless to be on me.

_ Rabbighfirlii (Tuhanku, ampuni aku)
_ Warhamnii (Rahmati aku)
_ Wajburnii (Tutuplah aib-aibku)
_ Warfa’nii (Angkatlah darjatku)
_ Warzuqnii (Berilah aku rezeki)
_ Wahdinii (Berilah aku petunjuk)
_ Wa’Aafinii (Sihatkan aku)
_ Wa’fuannii (Maafkan aku)

Hello Olo

2011-09-08T13:38:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah I finally arrived in Olomouc, with approximately 30+ hours of travelling. Tired for sure. But I can't stop now, and rest because the real battle for that I'm here is tomorrow. Too scared to face what will happen, deep insisde I know after two months time,I'm not yet ready for everything. To Allah I pray, for strength and ease, for me and friends, who are still preparing for tomorrow. May Allah pays our effort.

End of Ramadhan

2011-08-29T12:19:00.000+08:00

It's already at the very end of Ramadhan of which I can't believe with my whole heart that it went soo fast. ;( And I hope this was the best Ramadhan I've been through before. So bila puasa dah habis, Syawal pun datang but there's still few things that make me ponder , what happened in my surroundings. I'm not going to judge you people but this is just my two cents regarding what Ramadhan means to some people. Macam biasalah kalau petang2 aku akan pergi ke bazaar beli makanan untuk berbuka. And in the same time boleh la jugak nampak orang yang bermacam2 perangai. Yang paling aku suka tengok, peniaga2 tu la. Memang la adat kalau berniaga tu mesti nak untung saja kan. Kalau tengok pun makanan memang dah banyak sangat beza dengan dulu, makin mahal la. Aku kadang2 tergelak tengok perangai2 orang menjual ni. Teringat satu kisah ni, aku berdiri kat satu stall jual lauk ni, pastu ada la sorang orang tua yang nampak gayanya macam orang susah jugak.

Pakcik : Ikan ni berapa ringgit?

Penjual : 6 ringgit

Pakcik tu tengok duit dalam tangan dia, ada rm5 note je.

Pakcik : 5 ringgit tak boleh?

Penjual : Tak dapat la pakcik ikan mahal la ni

Pakcik tu pun blah cmtu je. Kesian pulak aku tengok. Seringgit je pun berkira tahap nak mati punya.

Bagi aku ni bulan2 puasa ni tak rugi langsung kalau setakat seringgit tu. In fact, kalau ikhlas nak tolong siapa tau mungkin Allah akan bagi lebih dari seringgit tu. Aku mungkin tak tau jenis2 kerugian yang orang tu dapat, tapi come on la seringgit je kot. Menyampah gila aku tengok perangai orang macam tu sekarang. Diorang tak sedar ke dengan cara tu la nak bersedekah, not just pegi masjid masuk tabung. Lepas2 tu memang aku terus bengang dengan orang kedai tu, menyampah tengok muka dia.

Tapi bukan itu je, tempat lain pun sama je. Kalau isi lauk tu, termasuk lebih sekeping daging, sekeping ok, boleh pulak dia keluarkan yang sekeping tu. Kelakar pun ada, I mean wujud jugak manusia yang berkira sampai macam tu sekali. Selalunya aku memang akan gelak depan2 orang tu jugak so tak tau lah dia perasan ke tak. Nasib lah kan. Aku memang tak suka dengan orang macam tu. Orang yang fikir untung hanya melalui duit.

so sorry lah kalau ada peniaga2 yang came across dengan benda ni, just a simple reminder. Rezeki tu bekan dengan berapa banyak lauk or barang yang dapat kita jual, tapi rezeki tu hak Allah. Kalau sekalipun sikit jualan, kalau ada rezeki tu, untung nya lebih dari yang berniaga banyak. Serius ni serius. Tolonglah please tak payah la buat perangai kedekut berkira macam tu. Buruk sangat. Beringat sebelum kena ok. *sebenarnya aku memang anti dengan peniaga bazaar ni, tolong lah buang sifat meng-anti aku ni , fix your attitude. *

Days left

2011-08-21T18:29:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah I have been given the chance to live until today and it's been 22 days of ramadhan. Zakat pun dah bayar. hehe. Aku tahu yang ramai mesti dah tak sabar gila nak raya kan. Aku pun sama je. Tapi deep inside rasa berat hati jugak, ramadhan dah lepas satu hal, lagi satu dah nak kena balik czech. Berat2 hati pun excited nak balik tu sangat la ada. Even sekarang pun dah semangat gila nak packing barang siap2. Lagi 15 hari. Pikir2 balik, sepatutnya waktu macam ni aku dah tak boleh main lagi, gila sumpah buku sepatah apa pun tak baca lagi. dang! Mungkin aku banyak merepek tido makan tapi seriously nak harap study tu mcm punah je.
All I have now is hope. Aku selalu doa supaya aku ni rajin sikit kat rumah. Tapi..tapi...Mungkin nafsu untuk buat benda lain tu lagi tinggi kot. Hm.. So harap2 dengan cuti yang masih berbaki ni, dapatlah aku memanfaatkan waktu ini untuk belajar and in the same time mencari keberkatan ramadhan. InsyaAllah. ;)

Anticipation!

2011-08-16T00:05:00.000+08:00

I've been waiting to watch these series. The all new season premiere. Heavenly fall ;)

Random. "This is Me"

2011-08-09T23:08:00.000+08:00

I found this on facebook and why not to have a try. ;)

RULES :

1. Put your music library on shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. You must write that song title as the answer to the question,

no matter how silly it sounds!

Most of the time they seem to work though, strangely enough.

1.If someone says, “Is this okay?” you say

Billionaire

2. How would you describe yourself?

Need You Now

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?

If Its Love

4. How do you feel to today?

Save You

5. What is your life’s purpose?

Beautiful

6. What's your motto?

Hot 'n' Cold

7. What do your friends think of you?

The Best of Both Worlds

8. What do you think of your parents?

Dear Mr President

9. What do you think about very often?

I Got U

10. What is 2 + 2?

Vanilla Twilight

11. What do you think of your best friend(s)?

You Can't Always Get What You Want

12. What do you think of the person you like?

Haunted

13. What is your life story?

More To Life

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?

Impossible

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?

When Your Eyes say it

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?

Umbrella

17. What will they play at your funeral?

Bintang Kehidupan

18. What is your biggest fear?

One Kiss From You

19. What is your biggest secret?

Who's Laughing Now

20. What will you post this as?

This is Me

Ramadhan Kareem

2011-08-06T22:08:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah for this year I was given the chance to meet Ramadhan again in Malaysia. ;) And of course , FOOD FEST! Ok dah takda idea nak tulis apa. Bye.

Make full use of it. ;)

Sky captured!

2011-07-19T03:30:00.000+08:00

I just love to stare up at the sky. See the changing clouds and colours. Here are some pictures of which I think awesome!

Full moon!

I wonder how it happened

Shots above my house

the tree that stands out

This was somewhere on the highway

Home

2011-07-15T02:48:00.000+08:00

There's no such word to describe the bless of being home. I would say just "home" not Malaysia because the day I arrived in KLIA was the day that ruined my 1st summer break plan . And because of the 9th July thing of which named "clean" thing (kenapa aku translate benda tu??) LOL, my dad had to drive Perlis-KL (to pick me) and KL-Perlis (to go back) on the same day. For god sake, it's super tiring for sure. Me too, 15 grueling hours before reaching the ground. But finally Alhamdulillah, made it home.

No jet-lagged , and thing just got to be so normal. One of my bad habit. ;P Oh and come to mind that I still need to study for the unfinished exams I left back in Olomouc. Haha just for reminder. I think I'm already over with food and enjoy stuff. Eating and sleeping to much. SHould gear up and start studying.

Just for the week, and next week I'm off to Bali. Horay . Been waiting for so long.

Well, I think that's all for now.

This buddy I've been wanting to see so much welcomed me home! LOL XD

Malaysia in the making!

2011-07-08T06:42:00.000+08:00

Yeay finally dapat jugak balik. Tu pun kalau nak diikutkan memang taknak balik lagi sebab nak habiskan exam dulu, tapi disebabkan stress melampau2, so ak decide better la balik. Abah pun cakap macam tu. eh tapi padahal he really wants me to come back earlier. haha. gotcha! It's okay la. So flying with Emirates and will stop at Dubai for a few hours. Yes yes finally dapat singgah Dubai . ;)) Okay I'm so excited. Dah penat menangis, and now I should let go those teary stuff and CHEERS! Pray for the safety of my journey ya! Amin.

Moh ler naik Emirates ye. *kebas duit bukan main lagi ha*

Nak balik ;'(

2011-07-05T05:09:00.000+08:00

Jatuhnya air mata seorang legend. huhu tak legend pun tapi entah I really can't hold the tears and it finally fell down the same as what happen after I finished my chemistry last time. This time it's Biology for real. Nasib baik ada kak Mira and kak Sri at least takda la pulak nak menangis sorang2. She's right, everything happen for reasons. He has unique plan for every of us. It's just the matter of time and our effort to it. To be honest my first year has gone so terrible that I drowned in tears everytime I was hit by problems and stress. Been wondering why I turn into someone who is prone to stressful things, and teary stuff. I really don't like to cry like seriously! But this time it's too easy. Can't hold it to myself. Mama and Abah I really want to go back now. Wait for me! ;)

Musim studovat!

2011-07-02T22:56:00.000+08:00

Mam moc zkousky ale nechci studovat. Pristi tyden pojedu na Malajsii pro prazdniny! LOL mangkuk sungguh bahasa czech aku. Ok bye.

Dugaan

2011-07-01T04:20:00.000+08:00

I'm writing this post because suddenly I came to realized that it's already the end of June. I barely notice its presence in my life. Sebenarnya banyak jugak dugaan untuk bulan ni. Maybe this is a payoff to what have I done before. Tapi , kalau nak compare dengan orang kat Palestin tu, dugaan exam ni tak la seberapa sangat. Cuma kadang-kadang aku je kot yang take it too hard. Tapi somehow aku belajar banyak jugak through this hardship. Sedih jugak tengok ramai kawan-kawan yang dah berjaya habiskan exam dengan jayanya, jealous tu mesti la ada. Tipu la kan kalau aku cakap tak. Tambah2 pulak lepas habis exam dah boleh balik Malaysia, cuti. Rindu kat Malaysia tu tak payah cakap la. Memang nak sangat2 balik awal, spend sebanyak masa yang boleh kat sana. Tapi one thing I learned , tak semua yang kita rancang tu menjadi. Kita hanya mampu merancang tapi Allah yang menentukan segala-galanya. There's still few of us who still struggling for the exams. Tiba-tiba aku rasa macam tak valid pulak. Tadi pergi faculty, macam biasa. Tapi takda pulak orang, I mean the environment dah tak macam dulu. Selalu seronok pergi fac, sebab boleh nampak ramai orang. Tapi harini sangat sunyi. Ada Mon je. Haha. Tak kisah la kan. Lepas tu aku pun balik sebab macam stress sangat . Bukan stress study, tapi stress nak balik. Aku rasa macam dah tak boleh fikir benda lain dah. Kawan-kawan semua dah semakin ramai meninggalkan bumi Olomouc ni. Sedih psycho semua ada.

Semalam exam anatomy. Alhamdulillah sangat2 sebab finally dapat jugak lepas MCQ . tapi oral pulak yg sangkut. After dapat tau pass mcq tu, aku rasa macam nak menangis pun ada. Because I know, this is all because of my parent's dua's. They have been worried about me too much. Aku pun risau jugak. I can't live with this kind of situation. But there's always blessings in disguise. Mungkin ada hikmah jugak balik cuti lambat sikit. Entahla. kena belajar think positive sikit lepas ni. Tak semua benda kena happy je kan. Kalau kita tak kena, bila lagi kita nak sedar the mistakes yang kita dah buat. So don't be sad my friends. We still have our chance to fix things up. It's never too late for a change. ;)

I'm sorry

2011-06-26T07:57:00.000+08:00

It's almost at the end of June but still, here I am. No passed exam and not even close to home. I'm so so terrified everyday as it seems that I'm not gonna make it through the year. Medical school already killed me. The thing that make me even more scared is my mom and dad. I don't know but every time I think of them, I felt so sorry, guilty because I know for every failure I'd gotten into here would cost them thousands of worries. I really want to get back home now. If and only if I could get away from here, fly back home. There's nothing you both could do than just pray for me here. And I hope He will heard yours. Because I don't really mind about myself, I'm able to cope very well with the failure but guilt-ridden is unavoidable. And one more thing, just so everybody know. I have been through so many pain and hardship, but rewarded with beautiful things at the very end of it. Things that I wouldn't even thought to happen. And yet I'm so excited to see what comes next of which should come along with another series of sacrifice. I don't mind if the ending is wonderful as it always be. Thank You Allah. ;)

SCARED TO DEATH

2011-06-22T05:43:00.000+08:00

I really feels like crying all day long today. The fact that tomorrow is coming is so unacceptable. Aku nak balik Malaysia sangat2. Taknak dah ambik exam. I felt so guilty to my mum and dad and home. I failed too many times. I spoiled everything, every chances I got and now I left with no confidence at all. As if I knew that I'm gonna fail again tomorrow. The failure thing now has gotten nothing into me. I feel like it was just a word that putting me through nothing. I'm not affected. But only my parents who I could think of right now. Because they always pray so hard for me, putting expectations in everything I do. I'm too exhausted now. Couldn't afford retaking this another time because I'm too much stressed out. This is what medical school did to me. ;'(
Okay. Wish me luck for my anatomy exam. I long for your dua's...

All good

2011-06-17T05:33:00.000+08:00

One biggest and valuable thing that I learnt here in Olomouc is how to appreciate everything you have and given. Especially when it comes to examination. I know, I'm so called 'good" in handling failure but the thing is how good I am to handle it the right way. Yes, I am not an excellent student, the straight A's who do nothing to achieve the colours. Yet I am even not the kids with stars on my A's I got during my A-level. I learnt everything the hard way that sometime people may not see it. When I came here, I felt relieve. Because all I have in mind is that, I have all the six years to study. But the truth is, its not always the beautiful side I always imagine of. The examination system is totally different of which somehow I might say awesome, and sometime stressful. It doesn't matter now because I think I am well managed with those stressful moments. 2 times a year. LOL. I can now pull a smile like it never happen, the failure. In fact, I become more encourage to see my friends' success. All of it is possible because of one thing. One thing that I always keep sealed in my mind. Faith. I believe that whatever happen, given or everything that I owned now is because of HIM. Allah the Almighty. I have this faith, He always have the greatest plan, that work the very best for us. Means, if He didn't want me to succeed this time, maybe He'll have something much better than just succeeding. So its okay to cry now, because in the end there'll always rainbow waiting for you. Hee~ That's why I no longer cry, depressed because of failure. Because I believe He has the greatest of all. ;) Cheer up mate!

Freak out!

2011-06-13T06:08:00.000+08:00

Exams. its just a matter of time. How long can you hold everything and believe that its the time you really want to throw yourself and sit for the papers. I don't know why I am so terrified like I'm facing something big, big enough to scare the hell out. Its biophysics and most of my friends already passed the paper. Me? I'm just in the beginning of my exams, after so much obstacles coming along my way. So sad actually. But I know whatever it takes, I must be strong to face whatever things that's going to happen. I should not let myself down by those unwanted things and just stay calm all the time.I hope everything is going to be fine tomorrow. I pray to Allah, that He'll give me strength, calm and ease throughout these few weeks. And so do for the other friends. All the best mates!

anatomy traumatization

2011-06-08T05:21:00.000+08:00

I knew I should have write this so that I'll never ever forget about what had happened today. Here goes the story. Just so you know that in order for me to be eligible for the final exam, I should obtained the credit of which for anatomy, I need to pass the Post-dissection and skull test. Then, last time kan aku dah fail in my 1st attempt for post-dissection which is sangat lawak sebab aku baru mula nak bukak mulut and then suddenly the magic word came out from my lecturer, " Ok, you need to come again next week" . Right by that time yang aku boleh buat is just gelak. Its okay I'll do it again. And my final exam, aku dah register on 8th which is tomorrow and the widthdrawal dateline dah pun tamat. Meaning, by hook or by crook both skull dengan post-dissect ni kena la lepas.
Ok, then harini, hari di mana aku kembali mengambil test2 tersebut. I would say by today, aku dah ready with all sort questions that is gonna come out from her. And yet, I was doing very bad and totally pissed her off like really2 pissed off. Haha. Sorry mate! She's just very unstable. She forcefully gave me the credit and maki hamun aku bukan main lagi. Dia cakap by all means, kalau aku ambik exam esok pun, I'm gonna fail.And I was like, wtf is going on. Haaa kan masa tu aku dah macam blah blah blah. Nasib baik aku ni kuat semangat dan agak "hard" with all such tears thing bcause thats just the word that gonna simply crack whoever heard it. Seriously. Tak perlu la aku nak menangis segala because all I know is that I'm going to pass the exam. Masa tu my seniors told me she always did that to every of her students before. And I was a bit relieved. Haha.
Lepas tu aku pergi pulak jumpa dia untuk skull test. Not so smooth but still I managed to answer her questions. Then dia cakap, "I need to hold your credit for tomorrow, You are not well prepared for the exam. come again and see me we'll do the test again. I'm really disaapointed with your knowledge for post-dissection just now" Dia cakap baik2 dengan aku sampai aku rasa sedih pulak jadi macam tu sampai aku rasa she's very nice actually that she cares for her students so much. Pastu dia cakap lagi, "I think you need more time to study, just focus and give more attention to what you study, all the structures that you need to know." "I'll discuss with my colleague to take out your name from the exam tomorrow and you can do it later. just study and prepare first." Okay itu ayat keramat, see she's nice actually.
Allright that's all. Bye ;)

We can do it

2011-06-01T01:28:00.000+08:00

Specially dedicate this for everyone! I know this has been a very hard time to everyone but yes no fret, we can do it no matter what! Be strong! cheer up~ ;))

Tuesday

2011-06-01T01:16:00.000+08:00

Ok perasan tak setiap kali post aku mesti highlight pasal hari kan. Maybe sebab hari hari yang mendatang kat sini cam horrible jugak la. Exam month la katakan. So this time, aku nak describe about my superfabulous Tuesday. Semalam aku tak tido the whole night, staying up sebab nak study histology. Yes for real, histology. Macam apa je. Aku finally decide untuk retake all the quizzes yang pernah buat kat dalam kelas dulu which was nearly the borderline. Pass borderline je like semua kot. Tak puas hati, I need to improve which I spent the whole night last night burning the midnight oil for today. And Alhamdulillah hardwork paid. I managed to improve the marks in all the 5 tests I took in one day, yet totally exhausted.
Oh right. The temperature today, woah sangatla panas like seriously sangat sangat panas. Usually aku akan stay back kat faculty sampai lewat2 malam. But then today, I fell asleep in the computer lab. Tido mati tu. Macam x percaya je sebab faculty aku tu dah jadi tapak construction so bunyi bising tu tak payah cakap la nak study pun memang marah la jugak. Tapi boleh pulak aku tido. Oh bukan senang okay aku nak tido selain kat atas my own katil je. Susah tu susah. Tak tahu brapa lama tido, tapi when I woke up, the computer which was supposed to be filled with people suddenly sunyi. Pelik. Haha. Terbangun and decided to go back home. Tido kat rumah. Sangat penat, I can't even open my eyes.

Ok dah I know this story is very very lame. Tapi for me its very interesting in some ways. Maybe because I'm thee one who live for it. Ciao!

Confused.

2011-05-29T07:53:00.000+08:00

Ah which one worth it all for me to buy.
A real bulky DSLR or compact version of DSLR *not sure of the quality though*

A Sony Nex 5

VS.

Nikon D90

Camera is a must for me sebelum aku datang balik Olomouc after summer. Because I'm going to rock it up my 2nd year here! Like seriously serious. I don't mind about anything sebab the only thing yang aku nak bila beli camera is that aku nak the quality of gambar tu especially the night photos. Suck it la bila nak ambik gambar malam cam bodoh ja nak snap without proper lighting and end up gambar hodoh cam apa je. Serious tak best. Lagi satu, indoor punya gambar jugak one of the thing that count into my consideration. Distant shots also. Yang lain macam outdoor and sunny shots aku tak kisah sangat sebab camera phone pun boleh snap cantik punya. Adoi nak spend banyak2 on this two camera kena lah make the right choice. Kalau tak menyesal lagi. lol. ;)

Wishlist #2

2011-05-29T03:52:00.000+08:00

Okay its nearly June. How fast the time flies like super duper fast seriously. In other words, I still have the feeling of a newbie in living here. But then, Its almost a year and I'm finishing my first year here. Hopefully I can survive for another 5 years here InsyaAllah. Oh well speak of the wishlist, *weird pulak usually it should be like"oh speak of the devil" LOL * ok whatever. I'm going back to Malaysia this summer, somewhere in July with one and only hope that I'll be able to tick all the things on my wishlist. ;)
Here it goes.

#1 : HTC Incredible S
#2 : Sony Nex 5
#3 : Dell All in one Inspire One 2305
#4 : Bali vacation ;P
#5 : Monster Beats by Dr. Dre

Make sense huh. Tak banyak pun, 5 je. So memandankan birthday pun semakin dekat, faham faham je lah kan. These are the things that I need sooooo bad! seriously. Kalau dah dapat semua confirm I don't have any intention to buy anything. Nak hadiahhhh prosim!!! ^^

uneasy

2011-05-27T04:24:00.000+08:00

Well it's thursday. How I feel the days has gone way faster than I thought they would be. Wow. And even I spend at least 12 hours studying per day, still it's not enough to cover everything that I missed before. Cry me madness, away go nerdiness. Lol. Apa aku merepek ni. Okay tomorrow I got Histology credit test which cover hellious crazyyy chapter with lot of 's' in the end. Like this, Chapterssss. See banyak gila, my current progress now as in 10.19pm, 7 out of 12. Wohoo 5 to go. Harini aku balik faculty awal. Yes, tak stay back macam biasa. Felt something wrong. Sedih kot, eh entah. Something bothering me and I didn't start the day very well though. Mungkin panas kot harini. Hm..Okay dah study. Rajin pulak nak update blog waktu2 exam camni. ;P

Demam TV

2011-05-26T07:33:00.000+08:00

Haha okay ini sangat lawak. Semalam tersebarlah satu link kat facebook ni pasal online TV yang tayang channels malaysia. Yang lawaknya. sebagai salah seorang warganegara Malaysia yang tak duduk kat malaysia ni memang orang cakap tengah sangap, gian segala lah pasal channel2 kat malaysia ni. Mana tak nya, setiap minggu duk tunggu Maharaja Lawak je pun. Memang la bosan kan. So bila suddenly kecoh pasal benda ni hebat la. Aku pun x terkecuali. Especially bila semua orang tengah semput demam nak exam ni, tambah pulak makin dekat dengan detik2 nak balik cuti summer ni, boleh bayang tak excited tu dah sampai tahap langit ke tujuh. serious tak tipu! Haha. Orang malaysia maybe akan kata, "ceh noob la diorang ni. Muak dah tengok tv beb. " Well tak kisah la kan. Dari tengok channel czech yg sepatah habuk pun tak faham kan. Best woo, like semua orang tweet pasal tv je lately. cerita itu ini la macam2. Last2 Astro ceria pun jadi bahan jugak. Aku dulu kat rumah pun, bukan kaki tv sangat pun. Eh, memang jarang sangat nak tengok tv. Paling kuat nak tengok tv pun sebab ada movie best kat HBO.Thats all. Pastu tengok la kot berita pukul 8 dengan family. Tu je. Astro ceria? Pantang tu sangat pantang. Masa tu rasa annoying gila tengok ceria. Tapi hagemaru aku tengok ja. Best kot. Muka aku memang mengadap laptop ja kat rumah. Now barulah rasa how much aku rindu Malaysia sebenarnya. Sampaikan tv yang x seberapa punya channel pun boleh seronok tahap dapat tiket vip tuh. seronok serious2. So tengok la tv puas2 kat rumah tu sebelum anda tak dapat jumpa tv berchannelkan malaysia like me. Haha aku memang jenis tak menghargai benda kalau ada , bila dah takda tu gelabah la. Homesick segala. Tapi tak la sampai "Oh homesick, kena balik like cepat2." "oh homesick, nak kena nangis ni" Tak tak aku bukan macam tu. Setakan "emm nak kena pass semua exam cepat, boleh balik rumah nanti." See, musim exam la katakan.. Ok dah nak merepek pasal tv ja. Bye!

Its Monday

2011-05-23T17:21:00.000+08:00

I'm supposed to have my skull test with Dr. Radka today. When suddenly I woke up this morning, everything just disappeared and I felt so empty. I don't have the gut to face her and yes the most important is I hate failing. Still until now I can't get over with such failure thing that I always put up in my mind I must pass everything on first attempt. And so here I am, still at home writing. O Allah please give me strength to face the hardship I have to endure here. Because I always believe, whatever You test us with is something that we can manage to handle. (2:284-286)
Guess I have to postponed again the test and study more.
Cheer up mate!

A walk to remember

2011-05-22T05:28:00.000+08:00

A walk to remember with the Olomocian girls. I was indeed very happy to see everyone here, picnic together and also something to ponder about. How much do we need to have the biggest of our heart to make us feel nothing bigger around us. For us to manage to overcome our greatest fear, from being "mind-hijacked" and so on. It was a great evening actually. Apart of that, I also spent the evening with Karaoke-ing on our way back home. Haha with the girls, Melissa, Najiha, Zati and Adzhana. Well yes the same girls who can't afford not to sing when you hear something related to any song. I just love it to the max babes!

Okay thanks for the evening, snacks and everything. Totally enjoyed as much as we did.

LOL- Lots of Loves ;)

*here's just a few snaps I managed.

Love the flowers. I can't let my eyes just to watch but to pluck them all. Haha *evil*

Zati

Yeayy me me with my flower!

Ahaha. tiba2

2011-05-19T07:05:00.000+08:00

aku malas sangat nak study malam ni. seriously can't get the mood right. so aku stalk orang facebook. and browsed through gambar lama. Tengok kat Jihah punya album, Eastern Europe punya trip haritu. Been missing you guys so much! Rasa macam syok sendiri pulak tengok gambar2 tu semua balik. Haha.

pastu dalam kesibukan stalk2 tu maka terjumpa lah gambar ni which is bagi aku sangat cool la serious2. Muka happy gila kan Pikah-chan hehehe. She's currently studying in Alexandria, Egypt. Jenuh la nak cari nasi hai.Haha ;P

Biological clock

2011-05-16T10:31:00.000+08:00

Oh I think I'm having trouble with my biological clock again! It's 4.30 am and here I am doing blog. ;) The thing is I need to get to school super early tomorrow for the dissection course , catch up the 6.20am bus, afraid of missing Subuh prayer which is at almost 3.00am every day. So I was like, how can I ever sleep knowing that my standard sleeping period would be at least 6 hours. No alarms able to wake me up lesser than that seriously. That's why I'm so afraid to sleep. Well I've been doing this for the past 7 days and counting. Too bad huh but what else could I do ;(

Curses

2011-05-16T05:24:00.000+08:00

I would say today was all a history to me. I've been in the correct mood which is to study la kan. Tapi tak la banyak sangat pun study but the point is it's so hard for me to get the correct mood for all these years especially "study" of which selalunya "terpaksa" Lol.
So tadi aku pun bukak la atlas anatomy just to find out Wow banyak gila curse word dalam tu. Aku jugak yang tulis. Haha Its almost everywhere. And I was like, dasyat jugak aku ni. Mungkin masa tu aku tengah study dalam keadaan sangat marah, sangat nak mencarut2, and sangat everything. *Boleh pulak ye study dalam marah? LOL* Well you know, tak kan la out of nowhere tiba2 I want to say curse kan so maybe I just wrote them wherever I was currently at. Teruk gila kan. That's what happen when you tend to keep your anger and everything at the same time and accumulating them all together and in the end, buku-buku yang jadi mangsa. Hahaha I'm just wondering what will people say if they accidentally come across my books with all those words. Mesti macam, teruk gila budak ni etc etc etc. But who cares, its my book for god sake. Its not nice but that's the only way for me to express something in my mind of which I rarely speak about. The problem is selalunya aku memang akan tiba2 think of something that gonna make angry. See macam sengaja cari pasal right with myself . But then it's ok Nanti nanti dah sedar tu padam la balik kan. Bukan susah pun. ;P

How to date a med student

2011-05-15T19:04:00.001+08:00

Oh yes I found this article on facebook and I was like, LOL seriously . Its hilarious man! Yet I am still in mood of No Strings Attached I watched last night. Haha somehow I felt like watching myself as Emma. But surely I didn't do the "benefits" part but then at least everything was well played! So here what I found kind of interesting.

1. Don't expect to see them. Ever.

++ Because we have tonnes of exams like everyday! lol munasabah tak?

2. Accept the fact they will have many affairs. With their books.
++ Oh books and stuff. I have this kind of guilt when books are not around. sick isn't it.

3. Learn to hide your “ew, gross” reactions when they tell you all the stuff you never wanted to know about your bodily functions.

++ Definitely, I used to feel the same but now I'm getting better at it. In fact, I can talk about the grossest thing ever with pleasure. Haha ok I'm gross now.

4. Support them when they come home after each test, upset because they failed.--“I’m going to fail out of medical school and never become an MD”
++ Well, dramatic as it seems. I did voice that out sometime. Yeah wow because every of us did actually. Lol again

5. Their study habits will make you feel like a complete slacker. For them, hitting the books 8-to-10 hours a day is not uncommon, nor difficult. You'll wonder how you ever managed to pass school on your meager one hour of studying per night.

++ Haha 8-10 hours is a must like seriously. Me? those will only be logical when the exam month is around. But then, when you heard people studying for 10 hours, don't be surprised its there for real. Now tell me how can you ever finish studying with merely 2 to 3 hours out of 24 hours you owned?

6. “My brain's filled with so much information, I can't be expected to remember THAT!" will be the standard excuse for forgetting anniversaries, birthdays,

++ Oh I thought this happens to me only! Alasan! Haha

So the thing is, I'm not highlighting the part "to date" but the facts that all medical students appear to have a very common syndrome. It happens to everybody that really really wow-ed me! Haha. I think its time to change it and get real. Alright! Buckle up ;P

This is soooo funny I guess I'm not the badass kind but more to reverent and horrified one! LOL so true

make stories

2011-05-12T03:44:00.000+08:00

my daily life now gone so crazy. I stay back at the faculty until 6 to 7 pm and come home with a very tired face. I do really hate my face at that time like seriously. Exhausted and spoiled. And as the weather now is getting hotter and hotter I still couldn't find any good conclusion why those czech people strolling under the blazing sun like its a shower of gold. Sun bathing. I even tell my Czech language teacher, Helena that I hate this excessive hot weather and she should be surprise.
Me    : Nelibi se mi pocasi (I don't like the weather.)
Helena : Why?
Me      : Je to moc teplo (It's really hot)
Helena : (laugh) I thought you're malaysia, you used to this weather.
Me      : Aaaa toooo hot.

Oh yea terbalik pulak kan aku cakap Czech, and dia cakap English. Well bila lagi nak practice Czech kan. LOL
Here's the conclusion to the last two weeks. My first time I failed in my Biology test in which have to retake them again. I got lots in my mind that finally I end up doing nothing. With all the knee stuff, bla bla shit and stuff. Mana tak fail nya kalau macam tu right. Ok blame me.
Another situation in my czech class.
Helena : Key, vase maminka ma kolik let? (How old is your mother?)
Me      : Er moje maminka ma 42 let. (42 years old)
Helena : *shocked* Je to mlada (so young)

okay got the point here. My mom got married at the silvery age of 20 I think so. That young. Well I'm now 20 like seriously I have no intention to have a family or getting married or attach to someone. I don't believe in early marriage. I mean it's too early for me that I don't think I'm old enough to carry the responsibilities. Haha.
Ok enough about it. so what else should I make stories about. I was like seriously shutting down my brain from literature and thinking.
Exams are coming very very soon. And next week I'm gonna have dissection week, which I'll be dissecting the thoracic region and the most important, NO CLASSES! Hooray hooray! ;)

another wonderful photo from my friend. ;)

another snap

2011-05-08T22:57:00.000+08:00

oh please save me from this addiction.

Love the colour!

Plum blossom

2011-05-07T09:21:00.000+08:00

Tell me seriously why I have this kind of affection to photo manipulation. Flowers and stuff. And now this blog gonna be my so called Flickr album. LOL yeah laugh at me. As it still not yet a masterpiece but I called this, my trash art! haha.

and these were all taken by my friend, Izzad somewhere in UK how do I know .lol by the way it's very nice! Thanks man!

One Love!

2011-05-06T03:48:00.001+08:00

"Count your age by friends, not years. Count your life by smiles, not tears" - John Lennon

++ Városliget, Budapest, Hungary
++ 24th April 2011

Not easy

2011-05-05T08:17:00.000+08:00

Just so you know that it's not easy being me. Okay I randomly came out with this idea because 1. It's 2 in the morning and I am wide and bright. 2. Because I don't know what am I thinking now and 3. because I got another Histology exam this Friday of which I still didn't touch any about it. Hah. see that is so Sakinah Khalid. The one who always turn out to do everything at the very last moment and yes regretting in the end. I listen to what people say, "Do whatever you want" and " Be who you are" that's why I don't have any intention to change the way I used to be.
This week had been a lot to me with all the school stuff, shit stuff and everything stuff. lol. Still lucky indeed to have this girl Shief to be on my side. Who else can I talk about everything kan, okay kantoi! Haha. Oh yea oh and oh, the exam month is just just just too close and I need to do some serious buckle up to finish everything in time or else there's no way to spend my summer in Malaysia.
But then somehow I realised that I lost the excitement of going back home. Weird.

I love this girl, Jessie J. ;)

Story Budapest

2011-05-04T03:36:00.000+08:00

Betul la orang cakap kalau kita suka sangat memang something bad akan counter balik. hish tahyul tu. No tak kisah la kan but then the terrible thing did happen for real. As already mentioned, I went to Budapest with the Borhan's family . And that the tragedy happened on the first day itself . Like somehow before that I called home telling abah and mama I'm going to Budapest and yet my mum's reaction was like, banyak2 tanya.and in the end "eh awak tak payah pegi lah" . so I was like, tak kan tak nak pergi kan since I already booked everything and was totally prepared for the trip eventhough I already went there last winter. Ok lah then pergi jugak in which I had this very bad feeling, very very bad la sampai one point tu memang rasa macam taknak pergi pun.

Central Market Hall

Skip the part, now okay dah sampai Budapest, memang lupa la kan segala bad feeling and stuff tu. Haha teruk tak? Our hostel, eh no our Guesthouse was totally awesome! when I say awesome means memang betul betul awesome la jangan nak deny lagi. Seriously siapa yang nak pergi Budapest nanti you can stay here for real memang akan rasa nak duduk sebulan. LOL. ok dah tipu tu. First, pergi shopping dulu dekat Central market Hall, then okay part best, mentekedarah makanan Turki bukan main kat Astoria. Aku pun sama je and yet I came back with this addiction to Sutlac, turkish dessert . Sedap memang setiap hari aku makan which aku tak makan benda lain pun tu je. Dah then haa cruising ni memang terbaik lah sebab apa? Murah gila kot and we got the 2 hours cruise including Margaret Island. I think this was the best day of all mungkin sebab tak injured lagi. Sebenarnya hajat aku datang sini is nak cycle je, pathetic tak? Haha then memang solely nak cycle je bukan benda lain. So memang kau cycle la puas2 kat island ni which is sangat best, kereta yang boleh tu tau 6 orang keluarga Borhan naik ha nah amek kau lagi sekali. superb la kan. Seriously penat then balik. Dahaga ni ha dahaga sangat2 and tak da energy sebab lepas tu nak pergi Gellert Hill panjat bukit pulak.

Ini happy terlampau kat Margaret Island

Ini part tragedy. As we got down from the tram, *memang dah sampai kt kaki bukit gitu* semua dah penat sangat aku pun nak la jugak cari air. Then jumpa satu kedai which is the opposite site of the road which ada tram rail tengah2 tu. Paham la kan. Ok dalam penat2 ni aku was like nak pergi ke tak ikut si Borhan dengan Faiz tu beli air, in the end pergi jugak. Tram kebetulan tengah nak lalu and aku pun rushed jugak la lintas bukan di zebra crossing ye. and yet thing happened. I fell down on the rail exactly tengah2 tu and aku macam " Whatt gila tram nak jalan Okay lari dulu" See the incident happened so fast that I couldn't even think about anything the moment that just "shit tram nak jalan" Ingat lagi yang that time semua macam matrix, time froze like everybody macam terkejut gila. And Faiz returned to pick up my stuff yang jatuh2 tu. And when I got on the other side boleh tak I saw my knee like omg memang macam kena potong la bleeding yang tak pernah dalam hidup happened to me. Tak pernah okay nampak sangat aku ni baik. Masa tu memang tak boleh tengok dah kaki sendiri and told the guys to call the girls datang sini. ye lah tak kan aku nak suruh mereka itu first aid kan lutut aku pulak kan. And so aku di-first aid kan kat situ jugak memang sakit la baru nak rasa sakit. paling frust is that my favourite jeans terkorban for that. Sedih seriously sedih.
Eh panjang pulak cerita but then I don't want to miss anything of it. So tak jadi pegi Gellert then balik rumah terus. Clean up the wound like memang sakit gila gila. Tak pernah rasa kan padan muka. I couldn't bent my knee but still can walk. Ok next malam tu I decide to go out jugak rugi lah dah sampai then tak jalan pulak rugi sangat. Panjat bukit pergi Buda Castle, sakit tapi tahan. Then the next day tu, memang mood sangat spoil sebab memang serius serius sakit sangat2. Infection kot and after melawat Heroes Square and Varosliget park, I fell sick, and demam rising temperture immediately. So I went back and let them explore Budapest lagi without me. Berat hati jugak tapi memang tak tahan sangat. For 2 days I walked with no proper medication and tahan sakit all, I was hoping that I can go back Olomouc asap.
Afterall, it was so awesome to be with you guys! Memang rock la keluarga Borhan! Now everything is fine , kaki? dah okay but still it won't heal macam magic kan. One more thing, when I told my mum about this, she went immediately like "Awak tau mama mimpi awak accident dekat sana before awak pergi" Lahhh kenapa tak bilang awal-awal . Tapi dah takdir macam tu wherever I was pun kalau He says so, then it happens jugak. Mungkin kalau aku tak pergi, tersadung ke kena langgar terus dengan tram kat neredin ni ha who knows kan.. So far Alhamdulillah nothing bad happened. Itu yang tak habis syukur lagi for saving me from the trams.
Pengajaran, lepas ni lintas la dekat zebra crossing okay. ;) *kat Malaysia memang noob la tunggu kat zebra tu but kat sini its very important dengan tram lagi tah kan. Take care people!

sebelum kejadian. From left, Adz, Me and Bella

Ini legend sangat ni, From left, Me, Faiz, Mel

Kitorang memang annoying sorry. Lol from left, Adz, Ina, Paan, Faiz and Me

Heroes Square

Dulu ada Botero kat sini LOL memang takkan lupa serius!

Love again!

2011-04-28T00:31:00.000+08:00

Oh yeah I'm home now with lots of stories to write. Well, technically, just one. ;) But hey hey..here's one sneak shot about my trip! my favorite photo of all!

++ Shot taken at Művészetek Palotája, Budapest, Hungary
++ 24th April 2011 <3

What happens?

2011-04-22T23:47:00.000+08:00

*Sambil makan bake rolls*
Ehem. I'll be away to Budapest again for Easter! haha. Macam nak balik kampung pulak dua tiga kali pergi ye. Pray for me and my friends' safety there. ;)

Saturday day out ;)

2011-04-18T01:34:00.000+08:00

Went to Ikea in Brno yesterday and it was totally awesome! The level of awesomeness is unbearable! LOL. Did some serious shopping and as if it was called "serious", there shouldn't be the "some" word. hah. Thanks to crazy shopping-mate, Zati Hanani. Swiping Ceska card day ;) It is pretty easier to just swipe your card rather cashing out your money bcause there'll gonna be thousands of Korunas in your hand. Still can't believe with my eyes, we have never been there beforehand, and yet we easily discovered the place. haha I'd say, it's the special sense of shopaholics. And yes what do I say about Brno? "Much better than hustling Prague." ;)

partner in crime ;)

Isn't the room nice? Aww I want this so bad

Heaven of beds

If and only if Neredin was like this

Haa The first time I saw this, I'd say, "Aha, ejen mencari jodoh" LOL

So that's all for now. Gosh, I love snapping photos nowadays. Need to get something better for the snaps, although Abah wouldn't allow me to have those slick DSLR. #cry cry :'(

oohoh Kill me.

2011-04-12T05:47:00.000+08:00

I really have no idea where this awful hobby come from. Its been like ages since my last addiction to photo manipulation that until one moment I have no interest at all about it.Now..hehehe brush up the old skills. Downloaded new Photoshop for my dearest laptop and walla lets do the awfulness. COz I have lots and lots to cover up.;) I spent hours and hours editing and stuff. Stupid but who cares. ;P

Still improving.

I'm 20

2011-04-11T00:46:00.000+08:00

Been wanting to live my life on my own and do stuff I wanna do with no hesitation. Because somehow I think I'm well aware of the right and wrong doings. I'm not Benjamin Button who grew younger all his life and through the process, things may not be the same. ;)
Let's Burlesque ! ;))

One big happy family

2011-04-04T02:39:00.000+08:00

Did I ever told you how lovable my Olomouc's family is? Here's the snap. Win or lose , the most important thing for us is "family" which somehow make up the feeling of being home here. Oh yea, there's a friendly football match between our Malaysian and the UK's this evening and too bad the luck was not all ours. But who cares, as long as we're having fun. that's it. *padahal aku main sorak2 je..* ;)
Less than 3 everyone!!!! <3

Kumpulan sorak setia!

18 degrees oo. but the one in shade is 50degree of hotness!

with our mama!

The team..team dragon? hahaha

This is what I called, LOVE!

Bestmate!

2011-04-03T04:09:00.001+08:00

Moje kamarada, nebo pritelkyne? haha. Its been like 2 or 3 years since we last stay together, yet she's the best of all. Some might say, get over with your old life and find a new one. But surely there's no one up until now who can keep up with me the way she did! hahaha.. Sufika Juni your the best la wey! Sumpah this girl sangat understanding the way I did things and how awesome if she's here somehow. Memang satu kepala kan2. hiak hiak hiak!! Ok sorry aku nak letak gamba hang actually kat sini and I just realized yang kita tak banyak gambar together..hahaha so neni picas.

Springtime!

2011-04-03T03:53:00.002+08:00

I have been so much anticipated with the coming spring season in which I can see the flowers bloom again. Real bloom and the hot sun, the light and hype! No more gloomy and lazy winter, the green field, rolling on the ground enjoying the sun. Aww so great eventhough I'm not a fan of heat but still my heart wears off with the temptation of greeneries. Just some more time till the real spring greet us here in Olomouc and walla.. And one thing I love about spring that it is the best time for photo snapping. Aaa I need DSLR prosim! Guess what, Neredin has the best picnic spot and it's in a walking distance! Just behind the buildings. Isn't it great..??
and yeah, there's people paragliding and x-games park. How unbelievable! ;)

Happy indeed. Love you girls!!!

Iryu

2011-03-29T23:49:00.000+08:00

Guess what, with all the classes and tests every week, I still have time to slave my heart and soul for this show. Like seriuosly I was way too absorbed into those situation that somehow I felt like crying my heart out every time they face difficulties. Coz it somehow show me how much is it to be a doctor. Well I just finished season 1, there's season 2 and season 3 to go..weee I love Asada-sensei!

Appreciation

2011-03-26T19:57:00.001+08:00

Aku tak tau apa dah jadi dengan Malaysia sekarang. Bukan tak nak ambik tahu, tapi the news is getting weirder everyday.so baik tak payah update teros kan. Baca status orang kat facebook pun mcm dah cukup nak marah. Maybe aku tak ada right untuk marah2 and mengata orang. Just my two cents. Aku tak suka tengok orang especially teenangers ni bising2 pasal current politics kat Malaysia. Bukan apa, I'm not siding with anybody, but somehow pelik jugak, how can someone tu boleh suka2 je nak backing orang like gila2 when you know nothing about the truth? I admit, aku pun tak tahu which one is true, thats why malas nak ambik kisah. I know how to respect others. Kalau dah rakyat tu buat la cara rakyat. Tak payah la nak sibuk2 bangkang sana sini. Meluat tau meluat. Dah duduk kat Malaysia tu siapa yang support. Kalau parents kerja dengan government tu siapa bagi gaji? segala macam mak nenek orang dah bagi pun nak bising lagi. Kalau students tu orang dah bagi kemudahan macam2, segala loan, placements pun nak tumpang bising2 jugak? tambah2 la budak2 yang belajar kat overseas ni. Berapa juta million billion tabur kat korang saja? *aku sekali la* LOL. Pelik kan bila tengok these people don't know how to appreciate apa yang orang dah bagi kat kita. punya la banyak sampai nak hidup pun malas. DIfferent people have different point of view and this is just my humble opinion. Kalau semua nak ikot kepala otak kita baik lari bukak negara sendiri. Pastu buat la law sendiri. Kutuk orang, spreading bad stuff and fitnah2 ni tak bawak any changes pun. Mulut yang penat, sakit hati lagi tambah. Belajar bersyukur la sama. Ni aku tengok dah macam bagi betis nak peha lagi. eh yeke? more or less camtu lah. Aku pun orang Malaysia jugak, lahir kat Malaysia I/c pun Malaysia jugak. But I see things differently. Aku tak suka dengar orang cakap2, bising2 pasal benda yang diorang sendiri pun tak tahu betol ke tak. Apa korang semua rasa kalau kita sendiri kena kutuk2 camtu? ;)

Get it right

2011-03-24T20:59:00.003+08:00

I'm in love with this song. Lea is always the one who stands out! ;)

Feed my hunger

2011-03-21T07:42:00.000+08:00

Suddenly I have this kind of enthusiasm , uncontrolled one to novels. Novels not with romantic girls stuff and grown ups. But my type are those with paranormal romance like Hush Hush and Fallen. Also L.Jane Smiths'. I do have a complete collection of Twilight at home and also Smiths'. I just love them all that somehow I find its hard to miss any of the books. Twilights are not my top. Instead I have this cool book, the Hush Hush series by Becca Fitzpatrick. yeah that one blow my heart up. I'd kill myself if Patch exist and that's when I started to play hard on my life, finding only Patch.I'm a freak am I. Carried away. Haha. But I'm so loving every single word of it. I barely can't wait for another comeback, Silence. So to break the tension I have for the moment, bought another novels with the "s". Two novels. Torment and The Forbidden Game. Aha kill me for that coz they'll sure gonna steal my study time. I can't stop reading them, its just a habit. continuously.
And yes, I already have my waiting list. When the twos done, Nightshade will take the charge. Well hope so. Isn't it a bless to have this kind of affection? ;)

This two babes are currently on shelf. ;)

and this to come soon.

Anger and hatred.

2011-03-17T06:19:00.000+08:00

I rarely put together my hatred and anger coz you know when those two things get together then the ugliest thing gonna came out. But I really want to get the ugliest part of ang-tred (anger+hatred) to get out of me. and that is so by writing this. I shouldn't have done this in the first place, bad-mouthed about others but its just that the more I keep to myself , the worst I can expect to happen. So lets just clean out and tell the world. Hm..I don't think I can speak things out but just to let you know that sometimes the good thing you did doesn't always turn out to be the best thing to others. I myself, not my type to take care of other people matters as a matter of fact, to avoid embracing myself into more trouble. And yet, thats what had happened to me. I never ever want to create such chaos especially in families but somehow the more you keeps away, the closer it engaged you. Haha.actually it isn't something to bother much coz after all nobody cares. and of course, this is also something to laugh and joke about. Definitely worth a thing coz last night I really burst my laugh out with my sister, through sykpe of course. I didn't even believe even with two wide eyes open, someone can act awfully immature. Come on, get older, be wiser. You didn't even realize what you did, very lousy and make you look even more absurd. Haha. and one more thing, screw you! screwwww!! LOL. Get your head down to earth, see the real world, dig your own nose!
Okay, last.." Ada aku kisah tak? Tak da okay..ne neni!!! Malas nak layan, nudny~ ;))

14 March ;) Happy Birthday ^_^

2011-03-14T02:30:00.001+08:00

Finally its 14 March according to Malaysia local time. Czech local? nahh not yet. But it doesn't matter because the thing I want to say right now is

To my dearest someone, my Mama! *Macam suzie tak kucing tu? haha* Don't worry if you look older coz its just a year away and we will always love you whatever it takes. I may have met thousands of moms but all I have right now, one and only is you! ;) Wish I was there for some celebration, but birthdays doesn't have always to be presents and those stuff. I will always pray for His bless to be with you, all the time, good health and yes, happiness.
*p/s: I bet you really have no idea how I miss your cakes, puddings and everything.*
Okay esok mesti main bowling, dinner and other surprises, tak tahu.. ;)

Mama anak ramai, mintak hadiah from Bobby, Bob, Molly, Kak Yatty, Becky, BenBen and little Suzie. hahaha. ;)

Still remember.

2011-03-13T08:18:00.000+08:00

I know I know..I'm not old enough to tell the world how much I miss high school. In fact, I stepped out those wonderful years only 3 years ago which I think doesn't make any sense to claim it as the old days. Facebook keep us all together, the seniors, juniors. That's the sweetest thing of living together in a boarding school because less than a year those so called horrible nightmare will just simply turn out to be wonderful and memorable that you can't afford to forget any single thing. Let it live and grow fonder. I screamed my lungs out the moment I graduated coz I really2 hate school.I hate the uniforms, I hate the rules, I hate the typical tedious life in hostel. Waking up early, queuing to shower, meals and stuff are so not my kind of thing. Plus, I'm a prefect, the house captain who got lots of things to take care of. The students, attendance bla bla bla as the list goes on. Time flies and never return. Those hatred and unwilling will just left buried as dusty memories. For the time being, I keep missing every minute of them regretting the mistake I did in past. Haha. But its nothing actually because all that matter is now from where I was created, here I am now. Continuing the legacy of beloved SMSTSP!
The last time I've been there was 2 years ago. Almost 2 years. I never have the urge to go there alone because I know I will never felt the same way as I was before. Things change , there's nothing same. But I will be there with those buddies who were once made my fabulous days, unforgettable. Somehow I never realized what the whole world will look like coz I've been sticking my heads through ups and downs there. And here goes another challenging days for me bringing all up together the puzzles that awaits. Just a random thought ;)

Candles

2011-03-13T02:27:00.000+08:00

Yeah stop posting those videos crap. Hell like I even care. Still comes hails or rain.eh is it right? haha. This will always be my favourite! Hey Monday! and my favourite song..Candles. I've been waiting for this video to up like ages. I mean since the first day I heard this song. Its terribly AWESOME! Kill me prosim!

Just a dream

2011-03-09T06:52:00.000+08:00

Dah. malas nak tulis panjang-panjang. Malas nak pikir and so on yg sewaktu dengannya. This is a great a song of which aku tak jemu-jemu repeat berpuluh kali in one time. Gila tak??

ESN-PEPA Ball. huh

2011-03-06T03:39:00.000+08:00

This was my first attendance to such thing called 'ball' . I've seen in movies and it looks so awesome seeing people dancing and their dresses as well. And so I decided to fill in my curiousity to attend this. Last night. ;)
I was enthralled by the surrounding. Kind of cool actually but turn out it was not all as expected. Slow and nobody's dancing. I wish I could dance, but yeah in this "sweet" baju kurung how could I do such move. haha. Then the very final moment I could finally had the grasp of excitement be on the dance floor. It was fun actually with all other friends.trainwreck! lol

Believe it or not I pray so hard that they won't collect this ticket at the entrance. my souvenirs!

Me and G-ha, always the same girls ;P

Dancefloor

Our friends, From left, Daniel, G-ha, Amy, MEE!, Qasim. Back is Adam

Aww she looks so good ;)

707 lol

Our table.. ;)

This is the final moment, the final performance where evryone move their bodyy yeahh yeahh!

oh Anatomy

2011-03-03T03:47:00.000+08:00

Have I ever told you how much I love this thing called Anatomy? Well, if not, I am now. I love anatomy with all my heart. Okay its not sincere perhaps. Too much to study, memorize. Today, the carotid and stuff. And every hyoid bla bla bla. I don't even remember. Digastric? EPigastric? nerve? vessels? Naaahhhhh!

Wear your heart on sleeves

2011-03-03T03:26:00.000+08:00

I have been wanting to write about this things while ago. But you know time mind me matters. I might not be the one who must have told the right thing as I believe most of these will turn out to be such an emotional post regarding to my condition. But as it is, I'' try to keep track of myself and hopefully whatever stated here will be true.
Okay. I often hear this, everywhere. Even myself did once ago. People judging the medical profession and yes it is very inevitable that there's so much doubt arising in here. I once said, "Why should I be a doctor if I didn't and can't act like one." and I have encounter this myself which stroke me " I would prefer the philosophical doctor than the medical practitioner..and some other reasons" There it goes. I'm a bit in between, before this I might see things differently. Never thought of being in this medical track and now, here I am making my way through this. And this "now" make me realize how much people thoughts and says bother me too much. They may say the things that the doctors been through are nothing to compare with the "doctor" who pull their way achieving the philosophical one. I don't know how far that would take me but the last few months changes everything. Everything is not just what you seen on the surface. The real everything is too much to describe and way beyond words. I am still a student, completing a degree which seem nothing much to compare with anything higher. But this is what I call responsibilities. You carry yourself up to another stage of greater responsibilities and obviously it is not an easy task to do. Human life and rights are on these doctors. Even the studies are driving me nuts, which I believe this apply to others as well. What about the reality after that, serving the patients. "Help" as told by my Medical Ethics lecturer. What about that. *oh emo pulak aku* ;)
I'm just a kid messing around and with no return I'm stuck in this world. Unexpectedly I learn something which tell me there's always be good for the path I chose. I'm not mad at people, it's just that somehow those cruel statements bothers me. The truth lies only in the person himself. I hate the typical judging, made to get others attention, to divert impression. These people lives, helping others who are in need. They do need consolations for their struggling days. But not with the bad words about them. Remember, things happen for reasons. And everyone has their own specialties and responsibilities in life. Appreciation is gold. so do appreciate people whoever they are, how they appear to be inside and out. ;) Cheers~

Awhile ago.

2011-03-02T02:45:00.000+08:00

Well, it's been a while since I last blogged. I might think I'm way too busy immersing myself into those studies things but as a matter of fact, I'm not. The "not" doesn't mean the real "not" but well you know I got this one thing real grabbed me, head down. Out from under, I never thought I would fall for such thing but this is it. I can now called myself a freak, Anime Freak. haha. I really hate anime once, never wanted to watch'em at all. Never nada. I would say last week has been a cartoon, animation week that I fed myself with only cartoons and stuff. Then just found out this one cool anime, Spirited Away. hahaha It was super AWESOME! well yeah, thats the best so far.Lots of anime-lovers here, so there's nothing much to worry about, supply ada. ;P

yea yea yea this one stole my heart!!

erm there's more! TADAAA!! Haku Dragon version!! <3 <3

No, no that's not it. Just another one..big crush!!

Nice isn't he. Just perfect as I wish for. Thank you for bringing anime to me! ^^ Cau~

I hate it!!

2011-02-27T00:17:00.000+08:00

I'm not happy when I finished reading a novel. And that's exactly how I feel right now. I need something to keep me away from the reality of my life and living in fiction works best for me. What should I do now.. Buying another one? What stories? I'm so locked up with this whole supernatural romance thing, vampires, angels and stuff like that. I love dark stories, and yes dark romance. A very complicated but nicely narrated.
Wait yea Amazon.com, I'll be there browsing you soon. ;)
P/s : I'm deeply in love with Patch Cipriano. where can I find one....... T__T

He's mysterious, dark , bad tapi dalam hati ada taman. ;)

I will never stop loving GLEE!

2011-02-24T07:04:00.000+08:00

I'm not really into Ke$ha. moc ne. But Glee always has it. The "thing" that immediately force me to add another song in my playlist. haha. Yeay and that's why I'm always your HUGE GLEE fan!!!

Aww Britney ...

2011-02-22T07:07:00.001+08:00

say what you wanted to say. but this is superbb! Hell yeah she's making her comeback. and there am I still standing for Britney Spears. How gross, weird, crazy or psycho lady you are, I don't care as if you keep making this kind of music I'm gonna love you alwayssss. I repeat..ALWAYS! <3 <3 <3

I miss them so much

2011-02-19T06:02:00.001+08:00

We never know how much will we appreciate someone when they're around us. But when distance separates us, the deals come over and this is exactly the term "miss" come to mind. This is my thing actually. I take things for granted before I came here. Far away from everybody I care, everyone who always be around me.
Alhamdulillah. My grandparents will set their foot again on the Holy land of Mecca. The only place which I miss the most. I called them just now before the depart, after a long time. And yet somehow I felt so guilty for not giving them any calls or anything. In fact, they often ask about me, how's my life and so on. Passed it to my mum. Communication is no longer a barrier to miles. No matter where am I now , still I can easily call everyone I wanted to. I just couldn't myself crying on the phone like baby as I heard their voice. Because deep in my heart I miss them so much and the place they're going suddenly flashing on my mind. I know they miss me to, I can feel the excitation.
Subhanallah. How great is He. How cold-hearted, selfless and heartless I always be, when came to the most beautiful thing that ever happen to me, tears it is. One thing I'm praying now is that I hope both my tok and wan safely arrived there, and safe return to Malaysia. Amin.

Contagious disease

2011-02-18T06:19:00.001+08:00

I hate being in the condition like this. When I pretend that I have to do, but instead there's loaaaaddds of stuff to be done. And sometime I blame the very long holiday to be exact 2 months, or maybe just 3 weeks for me as I devoted the other half of it cramming like mad. I know I know its just the beginning of the first and I decided if I still be in this mental state, I am going to call the history back. More exams to come this semester and I couldn't afford to repeat every single one of it. Why? First, I'm sick of repeating those things again twice, or thrice. Secondly, I want to back home (Malaysia) with a very happy heart. No burdens of the unfinished papers. and yes live the holiday to the fullest.
and sometimes its weird that I don't even feel being far away from my family, being abroad. I don't see any differences. Its just more or less like living in a "cold" version of Malaysia. haha. I think so. But still I miss my home so much. Cats and food definitely! Wait ya Malaysia, I'll be back soon! Soon okayy..
What month is it? Yeay February, mid February. 4 months away~~~ ;))

saya makan banyak. kenyang ;)

Night Nurse

2011-02-17T04:18:00.000+08:00

Cascada is always on my top list for giving me songs that put my body on move. Yeah yeah.. I would be dancing on chair swinging here and there. haha over sangat la pulak. I mean not that kind the strippers do, pole dancing. hahah. no no no! This one is a very catchy song and I LOOOVVVEE it muchoss !

mluvim trochu cesky. ahaha

2011-02-16T06:40:00.000+08:00

I'm currently doing my czech homework and out of sudden this thing cross my mind.
The last time I went to Cesky Krumlov before, went there by bus, a student agency yellowwwy bus. I sat at the very back seat with few other friends and next to me was an old local lady. I knew this trip gonna cost us 4-5 hours and I'll be seating with the lady whom already show an uncomfortable expression. Who cares, I paid 15euro for that worth trip.
Okay, so the thing is , I don't really know where are we after a few stops. And I decided to ask that lady concerning my czech's ability is still bottom-notch. lol. Probably she'll understand if I speak normal english, but yeah why on earth I learn czech if its not use now, isn't it. I went pretty well at first then......when another questions blurted from her..dushhh! I was like.. " err..pardon, err prominte..nerozumim." She looked a little bit excited when I actually can speak czech..She'd ask me something that I don't really catch but I replied with this, " err.jsem studentu.ziju v olomouci. " "mluvim trochu cesky." LOL!! She kept on talking to me like the thing that I did was only smiling and say "ano..ano" that's all i remember for the whole winter class.. hahaha. I'm sorry Helena.

I thought its a sign...

2011-02-16T04:49:00.000+08:00

haha. Have u ever encounter this kind of person who gets very excited and jump her heart out when knowing that her things got broken down. Well yeah I do. No need to find anybody else coz it's been me myself. Okay let's get things clear. Yesterday I thought my phone was doing something bizarre, need to be charged for about 4 times in 6 hours at which the weird thing is, I didn't even use it at all. No calling, no texting and yes, no alarms. In other word, it's dead use. I was like "what the heck is going with this crap" I mean, I have used it for less a year and dropped it like 3 to 4 times. No further thought, just " YesSS! This is it, the sign from the earth. A new phone is calling from the shop." Silly isn't it. Who doesn't, I couldn't live with my phone keep turning off every one hour even right now mobile is not something necessary to me. But yes, there it goes. I am excited coz finally the it gives me reason for another cash breakdown. LOL.
But then at night, I was so deep buried in curiousity to find out the cause of extreme breakdown. And taddaaa! in just a blink of eye, it's just that the wifi thingy haven't been turn off and release tonnes of abundant heat. Guess what, I could fry an egg over it. *nahh, joking* Again, Haha. I turned it off and voila, everything just got back to normal. Easy as it seems, here it is, safe and sound.
That is just a story, not to be excited about something. or at least try to value working stuff. LOL.

"Firework" ? Like in Budapest?

2011-02-15T03:19:00.001+08:00

Noob tak? I just realized that Katy Perry's video was shot in Budapest. No wonder that somehow that time I feel this place was so familiar somewhere. I thought Taylor Swift, but its not. Its Katy Perry! Damn! Aaaa nak pegi balik Budapest and sing " Firework " again just like in the clip!!!!! I would love to do those crazy stuff as in doing clips, even just lip-sync. hahaha. Bodo la benda ni pun nak rasa menyesal. And yes, it's in Buda Castle and the building nearby. I've been there!!!! LOL

You wait for rain.

2011-02-14T04:59:00.000+08:00

Vampire diaries soundtracks are always the best. here's another one

anxiety..?

2011-02-14T04:12:00.002+08:00

Classes will start tomorrow,its the beginning of SUMMER semester!
but there's things that I don't really undertsand. what's going on with me? how am I suppose to react?

like THIS ?

or THIS.?

as a matter of fact, after two months pounding hard on the exams still the exact feelings of mine now is "E.X.C.I.T.E.D" . See?? weird isn't it. I'm not the one who "loves" classes pretty much that I even skipped lectures before. but the real thing is I would rather spend my whole time in class than just staying selflessly at home doing nothing but laptop or movies. ergh. boring. and yes, after horrible 2 months I don't think myself belong to this situation anymore. Perhaps I need something new, in which the old one need to change.
so here's my new class schedule for this term.

see, the one in orange are my classes and yes the lectures in blue. that's it. I don't have much classes here. 2 times a day. 3-4 hours only. haha. be jealous my friends. :p